Noah is turning 21 this month. He is an absolutely amazing human being that just can't seem to get stable. He was diagnosed severely autistic 1 week after his 2nd birthday. He should be able to have friends, going out with them for a drink. but that's not reality. The past 2 years have been hard with being in and out of crisis. Many ER visits, eloping, deep depression, med refusal, school refusal, aggression, crying all the time. Refusing to leave the house at all. To Wandering into people's homes. Severe agitation. The list just goes on. He is so well loved but can't handle crowds, stimuli. .. He desperately wants friends but doesn't have the skills to make them or handle them. I do mail for Noah's birthday every year.. he can't handle parties and LOVES to receive mail with his name on it. Life has been HARD the past 2+ years. I'm so scared for his future. Absolutely terrified. My sanity is at it's breaking point. I don't really know how my body can continue with the lack of sleep and 24/7 stress. We have so many doctor's appointments on the horizon to get Noah back to Noah! Mostly out of pocket and not cheap. Noah being so clever about getting out of a locked down house has me terrified. Also trying to get his little brother back to his full-time cheerful self! The best brother ever! We are mostly just looking for some joy back in our lives. Happiness coming in. getting Noah back out and about interacting with people. I'm horrible at asking for help.. but I know people want to and keep asking me how. Thank you if you so choose to send some love our way ❤️