I've struggled with suicide since I was 16, im well over 40 now. A year ago, I had 2 disc's in my neck replaced and ended up disabling me. I can't sit, walk, or stand long, I have 5 broken disc's 2 tears in each hip and now from falling a lot, I have a couple of tears in my shoulder. I can't make ends meet every month, im depressed and just don't know what to do anymore. Any help of any sort would be so appreciated. Thank you