I'm trying to raise money to get by after I have back surgery again. So here's a little of my story when I was younger I was a straight A, church going, tried to be perfect kind of kid. Right before I turned 17 I got with a guy who was almost 16. My mom kicked me out right after I got with him and it was not very long before he got very abusive. I was with him for 6 years, and by the grace of God I still graduated high school. After he tried to kill me the 3rd time I finally left him. Life went on and I worked as much as I could. However, after I had my 2nd kid I was working and couldn't hold myself to all of a sudden. My work sent me to the hospital and on an X-ray they could see that my L5 vertebrae was in pieces and my spine was collapsing. So surgery was set up. The surgeon said it was from working like I had been and all the trauma my body had been through that caused it. I had the surgery and it took me years to recover enough to even go back to work at all. I had only been working again a few years and my spine is already collapsing again so they told me I need surgery to replace all the hardware they put in. I did not want to go through everything I had the first time I had surgery all over again so I just ignored the surgery suggestion and started using a lot of pain medication to control my pain and before long was using enough fentanyl every day to kill at least 10 people. Well I thought I had cancer cause of some issues I was having going on and I still think I may have but haven't had time or a way to make it to an appointment to get that checked out but I did find out I was 5 months preg. I couldn't believe it. I was told 13 years ago I could not ever have any more kids and on the very small chance I ever did get pregnant I could never carry a baby. Well I went and checked myself into the hospital to detox and started praying to God my baby be ok. I got clean been clean even since and my baby is healthy and happy but it's impossible to ignore how much pain I'm in now that I'm sober especially trying to raise a new baby. So I need to have surgery again just to protect my sobriety and my family and I can't work again so I need a way to support my kids while I'm recovering from surgery and I need to find a cheap vehicle to get around to dr appts and everything else so that's what this fundraiser is for. I need $5000 minimum. $2500 for a car and $2500 just to survive while recovering from surgery. Any help is greatly appreciated and when possible I'll pay it forward to somebody else in need.